Names and MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE....

My name as you all know is Roopa H S or Roopa Shivakumaraswamy ..This is how I am known generally...
Some numerologist in TV show said Roopa name is a disastrous name whose life always ends in disaster so that name should be avoided. However whatso ever my name is tolerable enough for me.
I dont know the consequences but still I am happy with my name.

There is a history behind this name.My brother who is 3 years elder to me , named me as Roopa ,there was no official naming ceremony happened , as I was born in house ,so is my name also without any ceremony happened by a then  3 year old kid.. So it remained same.After that mom and dad took me to yediyur , and named me as SIDDALINGAMMA on the name of god..As I am boon of that god.
In Japan Roopa is called as Roo oa

Some astrologer who wrote my horoscope wrote my Zodiac sign as Taurus and suggested few names
Listed below name,
Venkataratnamma
Obbavva
Uma
Venkatamma
USHA
Umamaheshwari..

and
 my brother still teases me calling me all those names..

• In recent times , he has started calling me Anniyan for my temper...
• Children just learning to speak would call me very cutely ....I love this..OOOpaaakka..
• My tuition students except Shreyas calls me Akka.
• Shreyas started calling me as akka but when he saw few northy kids calling me as Didi he started calling me DD.
• At college was known as Roops , Buds.
• Once I joined Infy SPS , I was as Junior cos there was another Roopa in the team and she was senior to me.
• Tarun , Chucks and others called me Junior ,my close friends called me Roops.
• After watching Salaam Namasthey , Noby called me as Bybes....Just for fun   & am the sister for the SPS..
• Tarun and me were Amitabh and Rajesh Khanna fans so he called always used to repeat the dialogue from Amar Prem, then I was called as Pushpa..The dialogue goes "Pushpa , I hate Tears re".
• Sudeep as usual we all (me and my friends call him kutte kaminey , he calls us back kaminiyaan..)
• At College after watching Devdas Madhavi got an idea as to call me as Paaro....so I used to call her as Devdas.
• Other than all this I am addressed as Sweetie pie Cutipie Honey by my friends Shilpa , Rachi , Kuku , Loch etc.
• Shilpa sometimes call me as DODO, dumb.
• Sometimes I am called as Roo...
• My cousins who are elder to me call me as Putta Chinnu
• My Last cousin , who I have pampered a lot , he calls me as Paaro whenever I am angry cos of his studies... When I hear this I remember Madhavi , and smile off. He always sing s that song as "arey Hey Paaro , Hele Paaro..." With this he repeats the lines as "Bhoomiyella hudukidaranu siguvudilla inta majanu, yaake bejaaru..... "and orders for coffee breakfast singing itself. 8Th std Kid he is thats it.....

Funny Facts, fundas of my life....

While writing some info to my friend got an idea to collate some memories of my life...all happy funny ....I love this really..
As I said in my earlier , the previous blog. ...the accident in my life which changed me a lot...here though I met with an accident only bro and myself knew about and kept on fooling mom as it was an wound made when got caught into a broken pit...Hehehehe but it was good....
At the same my best friend afy and my cousin anil had come home to see me after accident..

Afy Comes home on sunday nov 9th 2008.
Afy calls my brother and asks for address and comes home..Bro is home asking his friend senthil to take care of dad at hospital for two hours..
Afy enters, was sitting on diwan cot in hall with my legs covered with a blanket..
Kya gey tu , Jhoot kaayeko boli ,  lazy head still on bed...U r all fine and simply creating nuisance as met with an accident saali kaminii...
My brother replies signs at afy to calm and tells to be quite for little while..
Afy sits on the chair and i slowly take the blanket of my leg..

Oohhhhhhhhh kya hua gey kahan jaake takkar maari ? hope the bike guy is well, is he serious after hitting you , he is dead I suppose..Bro and Afy laughs together..again bro signs him to be quiet.

Mom comes out of kitchen and gives tea to afy and she goes out to neighbours house..
Bro tells the story that mom is not having a bit clue also that it was an accident....

Afy's reaction "gey tu insaan hai  , tu zaroor ladki nahi hai...couldnt u have called tarun"..He stays at NGV.me just smile and scold him as usual for being a loud mouth....

Anil (my brother /cousin ) enters home on Nov 13th 2008 in the afternoon..

HI akka hegideera..

Baaro baa..enivathu nodatha ideeya..

Akka get me some water pls..

Eh go inside take urself ..

He is astonished that I reply him like that still he goes like that..

Akka am very much hungry , pls can u cook something ...

Go to kitchen , open the cooker , there is rice and some curry in the small vessel beside and serve yourself and come here..Give me ur laptop I shall be watching Happy days movie till then,..

Akka pls akka pls do it..\

Eh dumma , see my legs with ur eyes wide open ....

Oh Good Gracious ..What the hell ? What happened akka ? never expected this ..not a bit fatigue on ur face though hurt so bad..seeing his reactions felt as if watching some funny american videos...hahahha


2) Cricket match , December 27th 2006 Mysore Infy ground..

Had been playing cricket in childhood days at school and with bro and his friends ...Now after so many years had got chance playing on ground...Hmmm I 'm loving it...supporting Sapphires...as two girls mandatory to be in the match joined the team....Not that I am very good player and all ..but Love cricket..am nutty about cricket and would not hesitate going to stadium to watch match alone....am all that you say Nuts Crazy ,bindoss, dare devil.....but am a sweetheart my friends sure wil agree......

Last bit of the match , our team had finished batting opposite team was batting...last few balls to be bowled..The ball was bounce , and the batsman hit high above..Me trying to catch hold of it....Sudden CRAAASHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Me and my manager(Mr PHANIRAJ)  tried catching the ball and got hit to one another..His elbow had hit my right eye.......haaaaaaaaaaaa it pained me man like helllll....All around  me and my manager feeling sorry  for what happened......finally we won the match and I was out of the match now as an audience...
I come to floor and my eye is swelling like a black ball in matter of few min ....GOD MUST HAVE BEEN DRUNKEN LIKE CRAZY ...when almighty created me , cos he made me a girl and not a single behaviour like girl...
I called my friend Naj and said what happened, he's like fully asking how am I and all the stuffs and when I said am roaming around with blotted carbon print eye....He was like some defect in me..Usually girls sit hiding their face at this situation and me roaming around...Felt Like "Million Dollar Baby" ,,,,,

    Next day when I was walking on the floor to my TL 's cubicle to back to my cubicle , I heard someone calling Ms Universe.two to four times.....Damn !!! Who cares for all the comments..To hell with the comments.. Me My work my life......Yippppeeee am strong ( very much head strong I am, aint I ? ) ......me in cubicle as usual listening to songs on my system and working on MOAI project...

     My manager DM approach my cubicle to see How I was feeling? My manager as usual very sorry for what happened?  I just smiled...

     Couldnt come home for two weeks...came the third week for sankranthi..by then it was recovered a bit and as soon as I entered home mom questioned why yyour right eye is dark ..? Are u eating well ? Are u taking care of yourself . If you cant stay alone " Quit the job, come back ".. Thats her as usual Mantra....QUIT THE JOB COME BACK.. I just said " No mom", I was travelling in that JP Nagar to infy route bus and it was over crowded and a lady's elbow hit my eye....OH GOD .....So hard she hit you ...Mom's started panickking ....That dark mark never left me ..till today its with me reminding me of that day ....Hehehehe......I love you mom...

3) Gilli Dandu ( Chinni dandu ) :

As a Kid till my 4th class had no other friends than brother..Playing with Brother and his friends,lunch with brother and his friends..So all his friends were my friends..I was in 4th std me bro and his friends were playing chinni daandu ..
Vinay was the one to hit the gilli and all of us me, bro, kiran , sathish and others to field for gilli..hit by  Vinay.

Vinay hit the gilli hard...high up it flew ..straight it flew and hit my eye as I was about to catch...Shhhhhhhhhucks....JUST MISS....CATCH and my eye both.......it hit between my nose and eye....and left a mark there..

Bro came running and scolded Vinay ....so sad..!!!....a small scar was there...Now me and bro very scared about mom...Me cos got hurt while playing with guys, which mom hates like anything...and bro scared for always taking me to play with him and his friends..

Some how didnt speak to anyone till next day...Next day heart thumping against my ribs...cos if mom would see that mark we both are dead..Quick think soon Rooopa  my mind said...Started filling ink into my fountain pen..took a drop of ink and smeared it on the scar near to my eye..
Went before for combing my hair and as she parted my hair in the mid she asked what happened and why ink got smeared..I acted as if I dint know and told am gonna wash it..

Uufffffffffffffffff !!! saved... Got ready and went to school after removing the mark..

Next day came and same issue again.. again I smeared the ink on my face and got saved..Evening as soon as I came back from school my puppy came to greet and I picked him up in my hands and e was wagging his tail and trying to lick my face..Mom scolded "let him down u get him all over ur body ".....I left him down and mom noticed that scar on my face and started usual inquiries.

Finally Mom saw it and blasted .....without an end....My world my dads hugs and laps and My mom's scoldings and my bro's pampering and fighting and doggies love.......MUAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I love my family..

My HALF TEETH...

It was in 96 just finished my aunts wedding and back in Bangalore..As usual I love kids and playing with my neighbouring kids in their new house with marble flooring....Anusha and Anoop...Very cute kids...We were playing Hide and seek and then started with running and catching in their house.Played so much , running in the house which has a quite spacious hall....Finally felt myself slipping on the marble floor...I was laughing and felt with my face down..My mouth touched the floor...Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooommmmmmmm..
Guess What happened next? My central Left Incisor had broken to half.. Oh God...I collected all the pieces of my Poor little incisor and threw it away..Thinking Tooth fairy wil give me back my broken tooth in few days.

I was scared what to tell at home , stopped laughing, came home silently took my book for 8th std and started studying summer holidays even before school started.Mom came home, she asked me did I feed my doggy.. I bent my head down and answered yes I did.. From then for 3 days my laughs and giggling had stopped and I spoke very little,just like answering whenever asked only...All were amazed at home thinking am not well.Dad came to me asking if I was not well needed to go  to a doctor.Mom was very happy to see me as DECENT cute with studying and helping at home.Hehehe none of them knew why I was transformed from a porkey to so called DECENT kid...

Then came the ICE BREAK Session at my house 3rd day after my tooth break, it started acheing , I went to mom called from behind..Mom asked what happened? Maa Tooth ache..Mom asked what happened , I showed her my broken tooth and said it broke..Mom started her sahasranamas for me.....Wow my ears went on banging my head...Hehheee....I just said softly it will grow soon...Whacckkkkkkkkk.....mom slapped me telling its not a broken nail or cut hair that will grow..Its gone she said.

At 6 in the eve she rushed me to a dentist, and the dentist looked at it carefully and said its dead,me sitting and playing with the instruments there,DEAD..Wow even Teeth also has life and death..Simply Great I thought.he said to replace it and for the whole treatment it would cost 1200Rs..Hmmm Mom started cursing me for putting a heavy debt on her. She said we will come back next day and I never visisted that dentist after that.After that 8 years I had not got it replaced, only after I started working got it replaced after Root Canal Treatment..

But whenever mom saw my teeth and started mourning and crying for it I used realise even Teeth also has life and death..till 2005 Jan I was known for my broken tooth..Rana Bhai always appreciated my broken teeth ,
Coolllll.................LOL ;-)

Death by side

Nov 7th 2008 , I met so many friends ,
I  was sad listening about CHOSWIN's death . A person whom I never saw in my entire life. Why its hurting me ? He was just my peer sitting at some vendor location and helping me with the issues that needed to be cleared.NOV 3rd he committed suicide on a railway track just for a mere girl who was his best friend on floor and was getting married on Nov 4th 2008.....

Though Friday dint have much work as all orders booked ,went to meet SC at manipal centre, then lakshmi  at CTS my Mysore Infy friend and met shilpa .Took her to my new house to show her the house and roamed on her vehicle went to Comm's where she forced me to choose my birthday gift ..I just pushed it off saying not now ...

Then came back to office at 3 .00PM .Bro called me up and asked me to buy him a network card from reliance or TATA...Said ok will get it to St johns when I go to visit dad every evening.

On my way back home took bus 201 till NGV ..Called up Najju..Nov 9th was my cousin sheetal's marriage and also Manu's marriage . I was totally confused which one to attend..For Sheetal's marriage Asha aunty and poorna aunty were forcing me to go with them and from there to Haal Rameshwara..For Manu's marriage I was trying to gatherup my whole team .
I called up rachi ,kumu and others to find if they are coming all said ok. Finally called up Najju asked whether he is comin to manu's marriage. Najju said he will try as he had lots of work and he is not able to finish them .
I started up my usual kindling fight with him and finally totally bugged with him , I just said if hes not coming even I wont go . Just trying my last armour at him so that he would change his mind.He said its too difficult for him. I just cut the call. Later spoke to Sajesh Chetta and Hari also.Mom called me up asking where was I .I said am in Kormangala going to buy Internet card for bro, she said how was I going. I said by walking.
Mom asked me to take a rick . As suggested by her I took a rick and went to  Sony world 100ft road, my mind listening to fm started wondering again about my life style before mysore and after mysore...Life changed before going to mysore itself ..My life style dressing sense  everything had changed ..dont know why these many chnages never realised it also...A person who wore pants and skirts very often and salwar once in a week ...sarees for every ethnic wear day..or just sudden planning days at night....had felt it strange when she wore pant in Mysore Infy on the first day..Proper Formals looked out as too mod wear for a girl ..Is it the Mysore air or is the fear might some day bump into a relative in any nook and corner of Mysore in pants..Nah never had that fear.....Its a common dress why fear!!! MinD Kept on wondering ..Now after coming back from there had put on weight , so pants were looking odd on me.Person who used to wait for Fridays to wear Jeans and her favorite T shirts rather than  the formal Shirts ,,,,,now on friday wearing a cotton salwar...Porkey look changed into decent traditional look ...I was NUMBER 1Porkey in SPS..Rachie used to tell u r HIGH ....When u in jeans..Ur walk , talk all becomes very confident and u behave like a guy and very carefree attiude u wud have....

Why this change never my mind understood..Mysore Air has something which turns people decent , I think but why not people who are staying there...Sudden air gushin into the rick making my hair fall onto my face.. I come back to this real world and see the auto is running at high speeds , road has not much traffic.... O M G crazy auto guys who drive as if they are driving a FERRARI in F1 ......

Whats that thing coming in front.........ooooooooooh just 7 mts away , a bike .coming in a wrong route . Oh god the auto speed is so fast he might hit the bike and both auto and bike might crash.!!!! Gosh man Am dead today....I am not scared abt my death anytime but worried about dad in hospital what if he hears am dead..He would get into a shock ...Bro would feel helpless and mom would really get into a worst condition cant even think about it.......God why now.......Why my family to undergo all the pains ..First of all bro is half taking care of dad and again me ..BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMM CRASHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!... Auto driver to avoid accident took a right turn at the deviation , the bike guy also entered the path and crashed the auto....Shucks auto turned two upside downs and me inside ...My heart missed a beat  !!! I am out of the auto and falling on the divider , my heads gonna strike it  hard now..I am dead..Life's over ...End Of  all worries......

I am on the road lying down not able to get up ..My laptop bag my birthday gift all scattered on the road haphazard....I remembered Franklin anna's accident on Jan 1st 2003, his ankle almost hanging from his leg seperated...I wondered If my ankle has the same issue now..its bleeding cant see the ankle at all ...My laptop bag is all covered with blood oozing from my leg...I saw the divider..Just an inch difference between my head and divider...No death ..but still worries continue...What to I say mom ? What will happen if my leg is fractured? Again another patient in St Johns..Me and dad hospitalised ..Mom and bro beside us taking care of us..Oh God pls no no ..Not again ....

People near by lifted me so that I can stand ..I just tried shaking my ankle to see if its fine... not able to cos its swollen....Finally rushed  me into a near by nursing home..Docs checked and said to move my leg ..They took X Ray ...I kept on praying nothing major should happen..

Prayed & prayed in pain ...Doc came and asked nurse to clean and apply medicine and do the dressing..
Its just a Ligament  tear nothing to worry..Dint know exactly about it then asked doc , is there any surgery ..he said laughing No no nothing to worry ..

Oh god relieved then!!!.. Took a deep breath ..Now again pain seems to be increased..A burning sensation..NO one in the dressing room ..Just cried loud enough to let out the pain thru my tears,,
After some time nurse entered to clean and apply medicine..Once she cleansed it saw my leg..Gosh full skin scrapped out ..its peeled of like papaya peel peeled off...After applying medicine she dressed..People had collected my laptop and my birthday gifts and gave it to me...Auto driver and the bike guys had escaped...WOW great.... I was sacrificial sheep for the day..


I took my mobile called bro.
Hello

I said him"where are u ?
"
He said I am in the pvt room with dad..
KI come out wanna speak
Its ok tell ma ..
No u better come out now .I get impatient..

He comes out
R u out ?
Y tell  me what happened ?
 " Dont get shocked nothing major.. I met with an accident just now.
Now dont joke...
Am serious...
OH how where are you ? OK wait I will come..
No no you dont come ..dad will get doubt so u handle him..I will call Vishwa or franklin anna for help..am near Sony world..100ft road.I need cash will take from them..

I try vishwa's number he says he is at native,, Franklin anna is on leave that day and far awat from MIT.
I called Kumu hope she will be near by ..NOpe she is not picking..Called Loch ..Loch is at home ...Called Avi ..Avi is at office..Gosh no one ..Wht to do ....Shall I call Geetha? Nope She will go tell mom first thing..She isnt that daring....Kya karoon ......

Okie Let me handle myself.I called nurse and asked her to help me home and on way will pay her...
They said ok and at 6 reached home..Went hopping down the stairs..My chappals lost on the road...one leg fully bandaged and other bare foot ......my leg is feeling as if its seperated from my body just an attachement is made to my leg........

Reached home ...Mom is praying and lighting lamps ....nurse enters first ...Mom is puzzled as to what happened..She says small hurt..Mom is full in tears ..she asked what happened..Nurse opened her mouth to tell ...I said my leg got caught into a small ditch in the footpath..Which was left  unclosed...Mom half believed,..News spread in my neighbourhood ...What a time dad is in hospital and daughter has her leg hurt ....all comments ... spandana geetha shwetha comes home ..spandu is full scared seeing the blood on the dressing.,,,,Dressing was not proper..Mom asked shwetha to take me to hospital ...I said mom not to come ..I can handle...shwetha got an auto and we went Kaveri Nursing home..I narrated whole story to shwetha and asked not to tell it to anyone.....Shwetha said ok....I dint let her see the wound .....sent her out...asked doc to give a pain killer.......Fine done and back home with shwetha bro s friends Senthil anna and Anil....

Thought came into my mind as to what if dad will ask why am not coming to hospital to see. He will be shocked to see me this way... I called bro...Bro picked the call and asked how I was?  Spoke to him a bit and asked him to give it to dad...Dad picked up ...He asked why I dint go to see him ...I said I had too much work and reached home only now...at 9 :00 in the night... Told dad tat too much work half yearly closing so cant visit him at hospital for 15 days ..he got angry and cut the call...

Convinced mom to go to hospital everyday and I shall manage at home myself just watching TV all time....
Mom finally agreed to do that,,Pain mom and bro underwent was more than the pain me and dad undergoing...dad never knew until his discharge after twenty days ..Mom also came to know the same day as it was accident and not a wound caused by Keeping my leg in the ditch.....But untill then got scoldings as to be careful while walkng... Ha aha ha ha I still enjoyed the scoldings ..... :-)

25th July 2008 Bangalore bomb blasts

25th July 2008 , office: 13:00 hrs Lisa barker and my manager me attending India Offsite call .Year end . Target ...billion USD .Call Kumar is talking over and one by one people logging into the call . Nora , Ashok , Deepak , Anna, Lynn me with Lisa, Ishmeet with nisha , harpreet and Sreeni.All SAM's.......
My mobile is ringing , the loan guy has come to collect cheque. Took permission and ran to give the cheque.Again in lift alone full tensed about work my past , my credits, home loan, etc etc year end tension . Want to be the best this quarter also.

Mom's calling me !! God why now? I have a call to attend which is important for me ...I picked the call finally . Hello,
amma : Ellidiyamma
Me: Office nalli yenaithu..
Amma:(full tensed) madivaladalli st johns hattira bomb blast anthe.Manege bega ba. Nimmanna helidaane.
Me :Avanu bandna
Amma: illa avanige kelasa anthe
Me:Avana kelasa imp , nanna kelasa enu , nodu ma ivathu shukravara call ide mugid takshana horadthene oki na bye.
Amma :ok bye

I get into conference room ,

S.....: Roopa how long ....K......'s been asking for you, ishmeet gave the update .Do u have anything to say?
S on call  " K....r roopa is here " u have something to say  to her..
Kumar : Hi Roopa , Hows it going  on ? I think I have nothing to say, u know the target very well am confident u will be at it .good luck
Roopa : (getting the fake smile)sure K.. I will be at it . We will get thru all the orders booked .

Lisa : K.... we will look through all orders for sure , no need to worry..Roopa is on it..I assure you.

Call ends after all updates.

Mails pop on my Laptop. I open that and read it aloud for S...and lisa ..
"Sreeni theres series of bomb blasts happening in bangalore , I will leave early and login from home".
Sreeni : How can you do that Roopa? You should be here see Products teams is working on it. U need to help them .
Roopa: Sorry Sreeni, I have my services order to get booked first later with products sorry but I need to go.
Lisa:Sreeni , think we should let the guys go home soon and ask them to login from home .
Sreeni :(Giving a nasty look at me ) sure Lisa.
Its 4 o clock out then and am trying to take a rick outside. I say Madivala , Illamma and they turn away .
Couldnt find any bus.
Mom's calling me again , me full tensed again , said her am coming and kept . At 5 , one auto driver agreed to drop me till Kormangala BDA complex..I said ok .. Whole way was praying how lucky would I be if somewhere I reach the spot of bomb blast and my body would turn into ashes in matter of few seconds..BUT god has decided everyones START DATE & EXPIRY DATE.

My phone rings again. This time Vidhya's mom ( my tuition Student) .......
Me :Hello Aunty

Vidhya 's mom : Ellidhiyamma

Me :innu viveknagarnalli aunty

Vidhya's mom: Unclena kalisala ma pick maadlikke .Hege bartheeya ? Auto yaaru bartha illa .
Ivathu tension tagobeda tuition enu beda ..neenu rest tago
My mind again swinging between the thoughts of life death , people who care for me like my parents and vidhyas parents gowra aunty shreyu Asha aunty , lochana and her mom , shilpa and her mom ..So many caring people around and I am worryng about people who dont care me like my Grand mom , my relatives many more....Why do we crave for things which we dont have and we dont stay happy with what we have?

Again my prayers started pls god pls god pls take me off today in some blast when i walk back from BDA complex..
I reached home at 5:45PM .As soon as I entered , mom prepared me hot hot filter coffee.... I started sipping it after washing my face and legs... felt relaxed.. Took up my laptop to login and start my job for completing my target for the year end sales.... Woooooow numbers just took me off my senses... ....billion dollars in 36 hours needs to be booked, lots are awaiting the Finance controller's approval....My laptops battery is getting low.Damn it...I searched & fiddled my bad over and over again..GOOD GRACIOUS !!! my charger is missing Damn it..  Damn it ......Where did it go ? I remembered finally it was in the conference room where we took our concall..OMG!!!.. I got up said mom i ma going to office to get my charger ....Mom stopped me but I dint hav time for waiting to answer her or ask her full permission ..Ran thru the street to catch up with a rick agaiin to office..
Sir brunton road bartheera...
Took the rick .

Rick passd thru the St Johns bus stop .....Full media people buzzing around like bees on the divider announcing looking at the spot where the first blast happened and the lady got killed..
What a job my mind said? Wow why ever I dint get into this job ? Doing a job which is not adventurous though I am getting fame and rewards....But working on jobs like being at such spots without fearing for life..
Here I dint fear Death but I feared living ahead of my life..NO god I dont want life..Even if i should for a day in this day pls do it..

Finally reached office ..Mom calling again


Where are you ? Mom's yelling at me?
Mom office , without my laptop charger I cant work and its important I stay online these two days mom pls understand .

Mom again shouting, "Roopa do u know you are girl and girls need to fear a bit also..You fearless lady dont u have compassion for us.."City is under threat of bomb blast and you cant sit home carefully. If this is the job u better quit and sit at home ..No need to work.. I said " Ok mom will quit after my Year end now pls keep the phone down " Am already tensed.

I take the charger and speak to Lisa and take leave of her..agian back on roads asking for every rick ..This time I find noone..OK finally decided will take bus . Got into 201..Hmm safe sound...Now in bus listening  to FM forgot all that worries I had,,Now only worry shooting in front of my eyes was ....Billion USD orders to be booked in 35 hours... GOD PLS HELP ME...

I think of that very day , I feel my thoughts so stupid.. my mom thinks of that day I just get blastings only .
and appreciation that I am daring ..Am I Daring ?.....who dint want to fight life and wanted to die..

Some departed, some near by , Some finished their Journey...

In our lives we have lot of people coming everyday ...But very few stay in your heart and very few live life long with you .In my life many people came as friends , dont know why I got attached to them so much, MIGHT BE ITS CARE...Its either I CARE for them or they have shown me Shown..If a man surrenders to anyone in his life is only for a CARING HEART ..

Yes the following people are those who have a special space in my heart.....My dad, Raju, Kucchu, Lochana,Shreyu,Shilpa,Sudeep,Siji,Sarika,Jammy(najamuddin), Dileep.

Shivakumaraswamy :  Yes, its my dad....my dad was very protective abt me,Very much .after losing my sister at the age of 3 ..He became very possessive about me..Even if I fell and had a small hurt he would make the skies fall for me. Once when I was sick during Deepavali ,he ran to St Johns Hospital (My second home cos everyyear I have given  visit to thsi hospital due to ill health in childhood)..When he was carrying me ,he had not even cared for his slipper which he left while running.
During my 10th Public Exam when I got operated just before 1 month to my exam, he sat beside my bed and had shed tears as he had lot of expectations with my 10th results..Even as a 16 year old girl he carried me in his arms then also....
My heart stuck when  I saw my dad in the same hospital getting dialysed with needles everywhere on his body..The dad who was beside me everytime now he was hospitalised and I was there with him until my accident.
Whenever my mom hit us, he would go away out so that I dont hide behind him but later when he came back he would convince me telling he will hit my mom back .

Raju:My Childhood friend ..A year elder to me .Very much protective..If anybody teases me or hits me he would be there to fight against them.If his mom makes Omlette, she would give me as telling its DOSA(am vegetarian)....So whatever is prepared in his house he would share it with me.Be it my brother also if I get hit by him , this guy would against him. As I was youngest of all everyone used to scare me by devil stories..He would SHHHHHH them all by threatening not to scare me..Now dont know where he is after shiftng the house.

Kucchu(Neeta Unnikrishnan):  Jan 21st 1988 , a fair girl with long black hair enters my house caring chocolates as it is her birthday. She became my friend after that ..She is also a year elder to me , She, her sister appu , my brother and me , were all jogging friends ..Go till BDA Complex (kormangala) jogging at 6 O clock and play there "Colour Colour which Colour do you choose" , Lock & key , Crocodile and other games..This girl and me both have walked so much at the age of  5, 6 , 7 ,& 8 in madivala..to the places which was  mentioned very far for us.she used to take me to the park on saturday evenings..We used to go off without telling at home,
We sat together to stitch dress for her BARBIE.. We sat with each other talking of our great household problems we had ....(demon dreams, our enemies in neighbourhood , how to prepare food curry ? how to get the curry color brown , by putting the mud or anyother thing to be added to get the brown color for curry :-) Hehe ).....Today If I am daring the credit goes to Kucchu ...dont know where she is now..some say her mom passed away and she is a Model in Mumbai...
Lochana : loch she came into my life on june 29th 1998. Initially our friendship was not tat great . It was just two passengers travelling in bus . From home to college and then back from college to home . We used to sit together in bus and the words we spoke was just did you study yesterday ? Yes no and nothing else:. He he . After reaching college though we were in same class i used to sit in second row and she in last . Till end of day no contacts. I was still in school mindset and not tat matured in thinking.. Bunking class means was a sin to me :) oh my god ! Was my expression. Sometimes i had to wait for her to come back from movie and it would be ten to fifteen min late . I used to panic as wat will my parents think if am late and all. One day her mom came to my house and asked me to study in their house with loch as there was lot of disturbance in my house. We both did our studies well for a month in her room. One day it so happened tat her room light was not getting on . And we just trying to read with balcony s tinkering light . Finally got bugged up and i found a magazine in her room . I was big time crazy in reading serials in magazine . I asked her did she have tat habit . Here it started i narrated few stories which i read and she found one of then very much interesting and we went on discussing about it . It passed ten thirty and my dad had come to her house to pick me up. I never stayed there after nine but tat day it got late and dad stafred at me in anger and dint say anything.

It was always like she bunks  classes with her group goes to watch movies. While coming back home, we get down in 16th Main BTM layout and walk home,she narrates  the stories.So I knew the stories of all the movies. The days we walked long in  madivala at night 9:30 to 10:00..The midinght talks on her terrace at 3:00AM,singing songs together,eating pani puri and golguppaon road sides, lunch at IndiJoe,Friendship day treat at AROMAS of CHINA , family day at INFY me bunking my MCA classes to take LOCH..Our fights regarding many things, her marriage ...My meeting with her at Brews & HAHA as soon as I came from my mysore.The latenight talks, etc etc.

Shreyu:Shreyas : Shaamu: My little brother, my BF as said my brother kiran and my fav tuition student. Now he is Medical student in second year but when he came into my life I was in my graduation 1st yr and he was in 5th std. I was teaching him and his brother.He came to my life at such a time I was really with much worries in my head ,he his brother and his MOM were like saviors to me ,Whenever I went to their house I felt so good and I forgot all worries of my life and felt relaxed with the family. With shreyu it was like me also a kid playing all kind of games .Whenever I felt bad he would be there to console me , and when i stayed night at their , we used to sit and talk long.When in his house they brought the Microwave oven he had prepared me Chocolate cake . On my birthdays e used be at my house at 6 only and wait to wish me until I wake up.. There are some things about our life where we get close to some people for their innocence care and affection they shower.

Shilashree:Another dear friend of mine ,how much i have roamed with her during ini

Me Bro and Ittina donne(stick used to make ragi bowl)

It was a Tuesday ..Mom as usual had been to Banashankari temple in afternoon ..It was summer afternoon.Me and bro at home talking some crap as to how many marbles we need to win for making our marble collection 100.

I am pampered a lot by all as am youngest and I used to fall sick very often .My best buddy and great enemy was my bro only.He used to take me to all games whichever he played.So till my 7th standard I remember playing Marbles, Cricket , Football, Lagori, Gilli Daandu, Choor Chend.. I never played hopping and catching or Kunte bille..Girls games means Whack........This was me ....still I am same a bit..

Bro if in good mood used to pamper me carrying on his shoulders and putting ulta on his shoulders as if he is a Besta(fisherman) and me his large fish and used to round up in garden on our terrace and in our whole street...

So bro told he had won major in kacchi or kanchi game (marble)..I said NO it was me who won maximum marbles thru Biscuit game in marbles.So started our panipat battle .Bro with manthu (curd churner) and me with Ittina Donne.Finally we went to an extent of hitting each other harder ..I got so angry at him.I pushed him harder on the ground with all my strength ,picked up the antique piece LOCK & KEY ( it was very old LOck) and ran out and locked the house. The amazing thing about this was , this was first time I had locked it and It was very difficult for me .Finally I was successful.and sat in front of the house as Villainy..Giving a shrewd look and hitting a stone in the garden..

Bro realised I had locked the door and started kicking the door.For his kicking sound all my neighbours came out to see "WHAT WAS the BANGING NOISE?".. They Understood the situation and started scolding me ...."BAJAARI , PAPA aa HUDUGANNA KOODI HAAKIDAALE..TEGIYE BAAGILANNA"...and me staring at all as none was telling me PAPA not understanding that I had won maximum marbles and bro had been cheating me by lieing he had won maximum..Hehehe...I heard all kinds of scolding almost twenty houses people had gathered in front of my house. A tamil lady also she aslo scolding in TAMIL..I dint hear to any of them and was still sitting statued as if those words were not for me.

I just gave them a DONT CARE look..One of the uncle came to pluck key from my hands..But I had hidden the key in my garden under the rose plant as I was well aware of the situation..All the people went away back cursing me.

As the time was going to be 5:30 PM , I knew it was time mom would be back soon.Suddenly took a big stick and slowly opened the door..Bro had already slept of tired of kicking and yelling ..

I too went and slept off... I dont know when mom came and when dad came .I woke up again at 10 PM to have my dinner with my dad.I prayed Banashankari that this incidence should not be known to my dad or mom .Luckily mom dint question me anything nor dad. We all had dinner as usual and slept off.I kept praying whole night the same thing.Morning also nothing happened.

After 24 years of thsi incidence I come to know now Mom never came to know that incidence at all.I recently told her about this and she was amazed that how come she never knew it at all.Thank you Goddess Banashankari...

People who see me once in 15 days or once in a month or once in a year..dont know how adamant , egoistic I am..But this was me when I was four years...Yeah still I get adamant egoistic but not this wild..Hehehehe...Hope many of them know me now after reading this...

By TWO Coffee

It was early morning 6:15A.M..No alarm woke up the 4 year old little girl..
She just woke up and starter searching her dad al over the house , Terrace and garden...Couldnt find him ..A little doubt popped into her head..She ran to the streets and saw her dad walking with his friend 100 mts far from her..She hadnt washed her face nor even brushed her teeth ..She ran behind them without even notifying her mom about her absence..She ran behind as fast as she could with her bare feet..

She started calling from behind.."Shivakumaraswamy , you cant leave me and go off like this , Stop Stop...Her dad turned back to see her running behind them and got a small smile on his face listening to his daughter calling him by his name .....His friend started teasing him that his daughter calls him by his name ..
To outsiders he was know as Strict Person ,.but for his dear daughter whatever she does..he would admire her..

Then all 3 went to JANATA HOTEL ..Beside Srinivasa Petrol..Her dad ordered at the counter Two coffees ..in that one should BY TWO..
Dad and daughter always have by two coffee.
This was usual routine..Dad daughter and Dad's friend  all 3 go for early morning walk and  drink coffee at Janata Hotel in Hosur ROAD(Madivala).
and come back home at 7 and dad again prepares coffees . ..Bisi Bisi Filter coffeee..
All 4 family members sit in hall and sip their coffee..Once the daughter (youngest child) gulps her coffee goes to her dad and get a small sip from his glass..then to mom sip from her glass also and to her brother who driinks late ...and ask him to pour a sip to her glass.. He would start yelling ..What is this always ? You come for a "KOSARU "..

This was mine and my dads early morning routine walking and coffee and chit chat about previosu day while coming back from walking..by the time my mom would finish with rangoli and filling water, we would be back ..My dad questioning my mom of all the account history I gave during our walk ..

Today I miss those good old days.. Once I used to wake up at 6:00AM now its difficult wake at 7 also ...
Today my dad's ill health is stopping me from takinghim to walk ..I miss it dad and I miss keeping my head on dad's lap and sleeping.

In my childhood days I used to pat my stomach in front of my dad to say I am hungry and he would get me packed from hotel ...As on festival days my mom prepares food only AT 3.
BUT today I feel so bad when my dad asks a pinch of salt extra and we need to maintain his diet as he is kidney patient..and we need to protect him..

I MISS THOSE OLD DAYS DAD .......